It’s amazing how life can change overnight. Literally. A week ago, my husband and I were out of town going on little adventures, visiting family, and going out for dinners and movies. I could sit and do nothing or get everything done. Then, we got a call that would change our lives, for now and forever….

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When you’re adopting you are trained in every way possible. I knew we would be getting a call soon, but it never hits you really.  Four days ago I was getting ready in the quiet of the house. I had all the time in the world. I washed my face, did my makeup, picked out what I would wear, a couple of times, and enjoyed a few cups of coffee.

That was 4 days ago. Since then, I can’t remember if I brushed my teeth, washed my face, or if I changed out of my yoga pants yet. It might be these TWO little babes we brought home with us over the weekend. I never dreamed I would have two right away, never mind a one year old and two year old. They are the most precious little things ever and I often find myself crying spontaneously, maybe out of fear of the unknown or the joy of having such good babies, maybe because I’ve never heard a little voice call me mommy before, completely trusting in my every move. I’m not used to being called mom. I’m not used to being a mother. And my life is over as I know it, and it’s all for good!

To be honest, I’ve been a wreck. I cry for almost no reason. There are so many thoughts and emotions going on. Some days I don’t know if I can do it and other days there’s not a doubt. I have had an OVERWHELMING amount of love, support and encouragement from family and friends. They are the arms that are around me when I feel utterly lost and alone. They are what is keeping me sane in times of insanity. I have so many things to get used to, but I know I need to take it a day at a time. An hour at a time. A minute at a time.

In the end, I know we’re going to be ok……