Oh, what a month this has been… One I am more than ready to close out and forget forever.
It started happily enough. A large snowfall. A new year. Lots of goals. Lots of giggles.
And then, Mr. Paintbrush came down with the flu. Or that’s what we thought. By day two… we realized it was not the flu. Instead, it was a re-occurance of a skin infection that he had several years ago. An infection that requires strong drugs and hospitalization. Ok… “I can handle this,” I thought. It’s like he was on a business trip. But, you know, in the hospital. So there was a level of emotional stress involved all this… but I was still surviving. I was busy washing everything in sight. I was single parenting. I was singing Gloria Gaynor’s “I Will Survive” at the top of my lungs. It was all good.
And then, my little guy caught the stomach bug. Now, let me be clear… I. Can’t. Handle. The. Stomach. Bug. And I really, really, really can’t handle the stomach bug when it starts at 11:00 at night and continues through the wee hours of the morning. In case you are wondering… I can’t handle it from an emotional standpoint (I mean, what Mama enjoys seeing their child in misery?!) I can’t handle it from a “gross factor” standpoint. And I can’t handle it from an immunity standpoint. (I have some weird immune thing where my body cannot overcome or resist the stomach bug. I’ve had plenty of ER visits because of the inability to fight it off without medical intervention.) So here I am, flying solo, one family member in the hospital, one getting sick every ten minutes…
I’d like to tell you I was calm, cool, and collected. I was probably anything but. There was a lot of internal freaking out and maybe some hidden crying on my part… but I do think I managed to stay strong for my kiddo. I think I managed to be comforting on the outside while internally chanting, “please let me get through this please let me get through this please let me get through this…”
Some how, some way… we made it through. The sickness stopped around 3 am and we got a few hours of sleep. My hubs was released from the hospital to recuperate at home. We had a couple of days where we tried to recover and catch-up on everything that had been dropped when all this went down.
And then, Mama got sick. It could not have happened at a worse time. Mr. Paintbrush had literally just missed four days of work himself and was unable to take any more time off. It wasn’t a school day for Sprout. There’s a flu epidemic here that took out all of my normal “emergency contacts.” Which meant that I had to parent through this. I felt like we were in “Code Red” and I wanted to radio “Mama Down! Mama Down!” to the world at large… I almost did, because I really could have used a Fairy Godmother, Mary Poppins, or some other sort of magic child care right then. It was the worst day I’ve had in a really long time. I’m pretty sure that my little one survived by scavenging the snack drawer and climbing the fridge shelves for juice boxes. (I’m pretty sure that I fed him meals, I just can’t actually remember right now!) I depended on lots of TV for him, lots of snacks he normally doesn’t get, and lots of bribery in the form of “Please just let Mama lie here while you play on your own. Please! I’ll let you have a candy after dinner!”
This may take the prize as my worst parenting day ever. But I just wanted to get through it. (And not land in the ER!)
And, I did. We did. It wasn’t my best day… but surprisingly, it was one my son’s best days ever. He really managed to pull it together when I needed it most. I’m still trying to decide if I’m really proud of him, or really sad that I was too sick to appreciate it more. I think it’s a little bit of both.
All of this made me realize I need an emergency plan in place. I have one for natural disasters. I have one for if my wallet gets stolen. I have one for lots of situations in between. But I don’t have one for when Mama goes down for the count. I need to build and expand my village. I need to have a portion of the pantry dedicated to food supplies for upset bellies, and a good stash of last minute meals I can make for my little one that are really. stinking. easy. I need to refresh my “surprise box” with new dollar toys and treats so when the wails of “I’m sooooo bored!” start up, I’m prepared… and I can still remain curled up on the couch, shivering under the blankets.
What do you do when you get sick? Do you have any tips or tricks you want to share?
pomelo / 5178 posts
Omg we just went through this too! DH and DS both came down with the flu. DH couldn’t take time off because it was his first week at a brand new job; DS was sleeping in 30 minute increments, meaning I was getting maybe 3 – 4 hours of broken sleep a night. DD also had a fever so she was sort of whiney, although her sleep was ok. It was literally the hardest week of my life. After 4 days, I took DS to the doctor and begged for drugs (he wouldn’t give me any). I forced DH to go to the doctor for drugs (also wouldn’t give him any). I called my mom and begged her to come help me (she couldn’t come until that weekend). I honestly didn’t think I was going to make it through. And then everyone started feeling better and I got sick.
luckily, I got sick just as my mom got to my house, so I got a little break.
The only thing I learned is that I can survive pretty much anything. I don’t have a “village” yet since we just moved, so I just have to tough it out and remember that all difficult times eventually come to an end.
ETA: The only contingency plan I could think of (at probably my worst moment) was to take DS to the ER. My thinking was that, for at least an hour or two, there would be other people around to help me out. Lol, it doesn’t sound so rational now, but at that moment I was pretty desperate!
blogger / persimmon / 1398 posts
@Honeybee: That sounds horrible!!! Ugh! This season has been sooo bad for illness. I don’t blame you for having thoughts like that. I had my fair share of “Maybe if…” too!
Go you for getting through it!
pomelo / 5178 posts
@Mrs. Paintbrush: We mommas are a lot stronger than we givw ourselves credit for!
blogger / persimmon / 1398 posts
@Honeybee: We are!!!
blogger / pineapple / 12381 posts
@Honeybee: I didn’t know how sick you all were. You do have a teeny tiny village!
pomelo / 5178 posts
@Mrs. Jacks: It was awful but I didn’t want to make you feel bad; I think I,ve already been pretty reliant on you, considering you’re one of two friends I have here, lol.
blogger / pineapple / 12381 posts
@Honeybee: Don’t be ridiculous!
pomelo / 5178 posts
@Mrs. Jacks: you’re so sweet.
blogger / persimmon / 1220 posts
Oh man, I feel for you guys! Our house has had one thing after another for the last TWO MONTHS (one of them being the stomach bug).
I honestly don’t have any tips/tricks. I have difficulty handling Baby Checkers getting sick because usually it means we are all losing sleep, and then the next day I always feel like I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. Perhaps I’m not the best person to ask!
grapefruit / 4669 posts
Oh wow, that sounds like a horrible chain of events, but I’m so glad you got through it!
pineapple / 12793 posts
I’m so glad you are feeling better, you too @Honeybee: !
I love how you describe it as your son’s best days. What a good mama to recognize his accomplishments in independence despite your miserable cold!
blogger / wonderful cherry / 21628 posts
I’m glad you are all feeling better!
blogger / nectarine / 2010 posts
Ugh, I hope you’re all on the mend now. This is my biggest fear that Mr. S will be away on a trip and I get sick. Or locked out of the house, or mugged. You know, all those horrible things that can happen to a mummy when she has no back up!
blogger / persimmon / 1398 posts
@Mrs Checkers: “Mental Breakdown” is a pretty good summation of week three of all of this.
Thank you @tororojo, @ oliviablivia, @leialou!
@Mrs. Stroller: I worry about the same things! And my car breaking down, getting attacked by a dog, etc…