Hellobee

Nearly ten months in, and I still haven’t finished my son’s birth story. Every time I open the word document to type, I find myself moving my cursor elsewhere, my brain and fingers listless. Nearly three months ago, I came here, announcing a hello, intent on reflecting and sharing and processing parenthood, again, with all […]

I sometimes reflect on how the first few days after LeLe went. I remember being exhausted, but also almost high on adrenaline and joy. It was such a weird time and even though I was literally surrounded by people for most of it, once we got home, it became this reality of life that was […]

I am very open about the fact that I do not excel in the newborn phase. I am so very type A and babies are so very unpredictable. With my first child, I was never diagnosed with postpartum depression, but reflecting back, I am certain that I had at very list some postpartum anxiety and […]

I’ve been absent for awhile, and the reason is simple. When depression creeps in, my creative expression is the first thing to go. Sitting down and writing is the last thing I feel like doing, even though I know it would help me cope in the long run. Even though I know that I’m not […]

Breastfeeding has been, by far, one of the hardest things I have ever done. No one ever made it sound easy. Moms told me it would hurt, sometimes their nipples would bleed, and that it might take a while to get the hang of it. But no one ever told me about the searing pain […]

I was diagnosed with postpartum depression (PPD) in April of 2014. My daughter had just turned 10 months old. Trying to Google “late onset postpartum depression” yields very little by way of actual information, and both doctors I talked to (my OBGYN and my primary care physician) didn’t have a lot of definitive information about […]

I have struggled to write this post for some time.  I was afraid revisiting my thoughts on and memories of postpartum depression (PPD) might cause more anxiety as we talk about possibly expanding our family in the future. I am more scared today of having a(nother) child than I was two years ago before Baby […]