*This post was originally written on January 17, 2011, one month after Lil’ CB came home.

Today marks the end of our first month together as a trio.  It’s a little confusing because Lil’ CB was in our arms on December 17, but we weren’t home until December 20. We just might end up celebrating and recognizing both days — because, hey, who doesn’t love a little extra something to celebrate?

I took Lil’ CB to church today for the first time and I found myself incredibly nervous beforehand. I think I was so worried that it would be so overwhelming for our little guy, given that he was still getting to know us and I wasn’t sure how he’d react to a whole lot of new faces. In part, it kinda was overwhelming. You would not believe how popular Lil’ CB was! But the swarm of people that came to greet us and congratulate us was just an extra reminder of how loved our son is.

We got so many well wishes and congratulations, but from members of the Korean congregation, the remark that we heard again and again was about what a blessing Lil’ CB is. In fact, one of my parents’ friends called Lil’ CB a “bohk dung-uh-ree,” which, literally translated, means a “sack of blessings.”

And it is so true. We are so incredibly blessed to call Lil’ CB our son. I cannot say it enough. Over the last month, people who have met him have commented on his incredibly sweet and easy-going personality and his friendliness and generally happy attitude. And quite frankly, we had nothing to do with that. That’s how Lil’ CB came to us and we are so blessed by our happy little guy.

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But, as I’ve been reflecting on this past month, something else has been creeping into my thoughts and I’ve slowly been ruminating on this thought as it’s been rolling through and marinating in my mind.

And it’s this:

Our infertility was such a blessing. 

I know, say what?!

I never ever, ever, ever, ever in a million zillion years thought I’d say that. EVER. But it’s true.

As dark and awful as our struggles with infertility were, and as much as they will never be forgotten, they just cannot compete with the utter joy we are experiencing right now.

And the crazy part is, were it not for those struggles, we would not have this joy.

Sure, we absolutely would have had joy from biological children, but we wouldn’t have *this* joy with *this* child.

I do think we would have adopted even if we had biological children, but I know the timing wouldn’t have worked out where we would have been matched with Lil’ CB. So, had we not gone through what we did with our infertility, Lil’ CB would not be our son.

And that…

Is just unimaginable right now.

Lil’ CB has just consumed our hearts and we are just bursting with love for this little one that could not be any more perfect for us. It truly is a match made in heaven. We fully believe God knew what He was doing and we are so grateful for that. And we are *so* grateful for Lil’ CB’s birth mother and foster family who each sacrificed and gave so much so that we could call Lil’ CB ours.

We are SO abundantly blessed. Blessed now…and as hard as it was to see it and acknowledge it, we were blessed back on that broken road that led us to Lil’ CB. (sorry for the way cheesy Rascal Flatts reference.)

What an absolute blessing and joy he is.