Hellobee

I have been creating my own kinds of therapy for my recovery after a brain bleed this past March. I was also pregnant so those two together kept me in the hospital for about 5 months and then in the care of my family after that. I decided part of my mental exercise this year was not to do any work, and certainly not any hourly paid work since I take so much more time now, but to create a video for this contest.

The theme, “Conquered” couldn’t have been more perfect and the timing just made sense so I jumped on it, and my family helped me dive in by watching the kids and letting me focus – something that I still struggle with as my brain has been recovering. The other day the doctor took one look at me and knew that I struggled with paying attention because my eyes still don’t focus properly or stay steady. But regardless, this three minute video happened and incredibly, it won the contest.

My husband contributed awesome ideas and reviews that I am much more grateful for now that my ego is less involved in the process. I don’t have memories of the early days of my recovery, but everyone who was there says one of the most miraculous moments was when I starting playing with my daughter with the balloon glove (also featured in the film). It was such a clear moment of intention and consciousness early on. So I think winning a contest for my craft, or art or whatever you’d call it, after a traumatic brain bleed is such a victory because I never expected it to happen. I never expected to get a shot at creating on this level again. I am so grateful to be able to turn hardship into art, even if it takes me longer. I’m still doing it, and I’m doing it gratefully!