I never realized that I could worry this much about one little person. I knew my life would change when Baby H arrived, but I didn’t know that I would worry/stress/search online like a crazy person about every little thing.

Yes, that’s right, if you looked at my online search history for the past 4 weeks, you would see some of the craziest things. Thus far in Baby H’s life, Mr. H and I have obsessed over the following topics:

  • What does a strong umbilical cord stump smell mean?
  • How much weight should a newborn lose after birth?
  • How much weight should a newborn gain each day?
  • How long will it take for my milk to come in?
  • How can I make my milk come in faster?
  • How do I take a baby’s temperature?
  • Why hasn’t my newborn pooped in 4 days?
  • What does bright green baby poop mean?
  • Why is my baby spitting up at night?
  • How to do I get a fussy newborn to sleep at night?
  • Why is my newborn’s nose stuffy?

We’ve had a lot of little things happen in the past month of having Baby H in our lives. Fortunately, everything has been minor and we haven’t had any true scares with her health, but when things gravitate away from what is considered “normal” we get completely freaked out. It seems like we figure out one thing only to tackle the next situation that comes our way.

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At our first pediatrician appointment when Baby H was 4 days old, we found out that she was down a full pound from her birth weight. She was also showing signs of dehydration – dry lips and mouth and a hoarse cry. My milk simply hadn’t come in yet, so we had to supplement with formula for 2 days until she was able to breastfeed. She pooped the day we started the formula and then we didn’t get another poop from her for 5 full days. We were terrified that something was majorly wrong, and were searching online like crazy while waiting to hear back from our pediatrician (our conclusion: combination of formula and breast milk in her system threw things off). It’s amazing how excited two people can be about poop – we rejoiced when she finally had a big poopy diaper!

But, of course, we went from worrying about no poop to worrying about the poop that we were seeing. All the books and websites say it should have been a mustard-like yellow color, but we were seeing some very green poop! With online searching, we found that this could mean she wasn’t getting enough hind milk, or she had an intolerance to the dairy I was eating. Or, well, it could mean nothing. After debating cutting dairy out of my diet completely and paying close attention to how she was nursing, we spoke with our pediatrician at our next appointment who assured us that newborn poop could be any range of colors and not to worry about it.

I wonder what parenthood would be like for us without the ability to do internet searches around the clock. I’m sure we’d have an arsenal of parenting and child development books, and would call our parents and pediatrician much more frequently with questions. However, at 3am when Baby H is fussing like crazy, it’s much easier to look online for tips on quieting her down than waking up my mom to ask for suggestions.

On the flip side, while internet searches offer convenience, they can overwhelm you sometimes with even more worry than you had before you started. Medical articles highlight a wide range of any and every health problem that might occur in relation to the symptoms you’re looking up. At 3am this can cause a world of worry that keeps you up all night. One night I was so paranoid because Baby H was spitting up that I stared at her as she slept in her co-sleeper until the sun came up, while searching online for what could be causing the spit up. Having that much information at your fingertips can be both empowering and debilitating.

I hope that as we continue with parenthood we’ll learn to relax a little bit more. Of course we want to be aware, informed and proactive parents, but we also need to draw the line between caring about our baby’s well-being and worrying over each and every breath she takes.

But seriously, with a face like this, how can you not worry?!

Do you “run” straight to the internet and obsess over each and every problem your baby may have?