Hellobee

This grieving process stuff is so hard. I find myself moving through stages of extreme sadness, then anger, then numbness. I also have a lot of anxiety about getting pregnant again, losing a baby again, getting so sick again. But life is moving on: I have to go to work, I have to send my […]

A diamond for my little April baby. Oh, how I wanted this post to be something different. Just a short while ago, I was excitedly planning on writing a post titled “We’re in Stork Mode!” But just a couple of months of being in stork mode, our sweet baby died at eleven weeks. I know so many […]

It was this week last year that I found out that I was pregnant. This ended in an early loss and at the time, it shook me to my core and really messed with my head. I was desperate to be pregnant again and have my wish of three children be my reality, but Mr. […]

When we were at the hospital immediately following my miscarriage, the doctor asked us questions we weren’t yet prepared to answer. He talked to us about the options of disposition as well as mention of the availability of a chaplain and an upcoming memorial service.  Having worked in the hospital before and witnessing families deal with loss, these […]

During the first week after my miscarriage, I relied heavily on the support of friends and family. Everyone grieves differently and I was surprised with myself in my willingness and desire to connect with loved ones almost immediately. Because many of our family and friends had known of my pregnancy, a lot of them came […]

I am no stranger to pregnancy loss, having experienced three miscarriages in a row between my two kids. I’ve been aware of October 15 as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day since before my own experience with PAIL, but after I became someone on the other side of it, the day held personal meaning instead […]

One of the hardest things about losing a pregnancy or baby is that there doesn’t seem to be an obvious place to go to get the comfort you seek. For me, I had no idea how many people around me had experienced loss, and this meant that I was unable to find my tribe of […]